powers updated 20 Feb 2008
appearance updated 4 Feb 2008
story updated 2 Mar 2013

CURRENT NOTES

Trevor is currently in a mental institution, unaware that Roland is trying to track him down....

TREVOR'S STORY (in C:AOP)
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[Opening Theme- The Boxer by Simon and Garfunkel]
  • Trevor's arrival [age 22]
  • meeting Serena
  • Brandan and the Succubus
  • joining the DTA
    [Rising Action - Prophecy by Remy Zero]
  • choosing the dark path
  • chicago [age 23]
  • livin' the mad life
  • demonic market
  • remy's spell
  • dreamscape madness
  • the battle revelation [Climax]
  • Chuck and emotions rediscovered [age 24]
    [Falling Action - Medicine by Guster]
  • Ethan and the choice
  • Kathryn and end game

    TREVOR'S STORY (in Lost & Bound)
  • between CAOP and L & B [age 25]
  • resurrection [age 26]

    [End Credits - Become by Goo Goo Dolls]

    The Path of Neutrality

    Arriving in San Francisco, Trevor's first stop was the restaurant Quake. Having the cheapest meal he could find, Trevor, bored out his mind, took to staring at a man named Michael Kane. Between annoying the waitress, Leah, with his cigarettes and staring at Michael, he hardly notices Vince Corinthos enter the dining area. Unbeknownst to Trevor, Vince casts a spell to freeze all the people in the room except himself and Michael. When the spell is lifted, Trevor realizes magic had to have been used--and not wanting any part in magic anymore--he scurries out of the restaurant, sandwich in hand.

    After going to the university--only to discover the admissions office was closed--Trevor winds up in The Golden Gate Park. While sitting on a park bench smoking, he meets a woman named Serena Martinez. She offers to get a motel room with him, and Trevor, slightly amused--but mostly bored--agrees. When they arrive at the Sunshine Motel, they decide spending a night out on the cold beach would be better than the disgusting motel.

    After talking for a while, Trevor starts to realize he is somewhat attracted to Serena, but before anything can come of it, they are attacked by a demon. Forced to use magic to save himself, Trevor is disturbed by the notion that he cannot escape his destiny of magic (and besides he doesn't believe in that shit called destiny). While fighting the demon on the beach, Trevor meets a kid named Brandan.

    After scaring the demon away, Trevor decides to get the hell off the beach. Driving Brandan and Serena back to Brandan's dorm room, he struggles with what he had just seen Serena do. She admits to him that she is a whitelighter. Immediately, Trevor's world is thrown upside down as he struggles to accept the idea of beings watching over witches and guiding people's destinies. The very idea scares him--and throws a wrench in his relationship with Serena.

    Once inside Brandan's dorm room, Trevor helps take care of his wounds. Getting a little squeamish when he discovers Brandan is gay, Trevor shrugs it off and heads to the computer lab to get his class schedule. Once that chore is done, he decides to take Brandan to P3 for a little fun.

    At P3, Trevor and Brandan are paid a visit by Serena. Under orders from the elders, their memories are erased of the knowledge that she is a whitelighter. Shaking his head from the memory dust, Trevor is somewhat confused--especially since he realizes he and Serena had just kissed. With a cautious smile, Trevor makes loose plans to see Serena again and then heads back into the bar with Brandan.

    A succubus named Diana attacks Trevor and Brandan. Finding himself uncontrollably attracted to this strange woman, Trevor casts a spell to get Brandan out of the way. Going deeper and deeper under her spell, Trevor allows himself to be taken to the succubus' underground lair.

    After getting a little hot and heavy with said succubus, Trevor realizes he is under a spell and, with difficulty, manages to escape by pretending he can teleport--but actually he just hides in the shadows. Running from her lair (after being hit in the head with a scrying crystal), Trevor runs straight into the Demonic Training Academy.

    Hurrying through the corridors with no shirt (the succubus took it off him--and he hadn't exactly struggled against it), Trevor bumps into Cannan and her vampire friends. Afraid that these 'demons' would kill him, Trevor pretends to be a prospective student and finds himself heading to the headmaster's office.

    After being offered an unexpected invitation for sex by the vampire Mya, Trevor tells her his quota for sex has been reached and he knocks on the headmaster's door before he can lose his nerve. Corvus, the headmaster of the Demonic Training Academy, is not too pleased to be interrupted. Scared out of his mind, Trevor fumbles with his words and manages to convince Corvus that he wants to be a student at the Academy.

    To Trevor's surprise, he finds himself thinking that perhaps the mortal world is no longer right for him. Perhaps the Demonic Training Academy would be good. After a little soul searching and trying not to be killed, Trevor is relieved when Corvus accepts him into the DTA. Soon after, a young demon named Justin Sanders enters the office and asks for his class schedule and rooming assignment.

    Curious as to how to survive in the underworld, Trevor watches Justin and the headmaster with silent interest. Not much liking Justin, he is a little annoyed to discover Justin will be his roommate. After being dismissed from the headmaster's office, Trevor and Justin head off to their first class and form a silent truce of being somewhat nice to each other.

    While in the training arena, where their first class will take place, Trevor challenges Justin to help him vanquish Diana, the succubus. He is afraid that Corvus might discover his real reason for joining the DTA was to escape her, so he wants to destroy the evidence. And besides, he has a personal grudge against the woman. She did, after all, steal his shirt.

    Before Justin can give Trevor an answer, the demon teacher Shakana and a horde of demonic students enter the training academy. Justin and Trevor eye a fellow student named Danika. Soon after, Shakana chooses Trevor to enter the arena and begin his first lesson.

    Under Shakana's orders, Trevor is told to fight a woman named Jesse. Unsure of where his emotions lie, but not wanting to be killed, Trevor goes along with the fight. After being wounded in the shoulder and side, Jesse whispers to him that he should ask for her head once she is dead and then allows Trevor to kill her. With hardly a second thought, Trevor stabs Jesse through the heart and is a little disturbed by his apathetic reaction to her death.

    ( Externally, Trevor's memories of Cannan and the vampire Missy are reduced to a dreamlike state. )

    Asking Shakana for Jesse's head turns out to be a semi-suicidal idea. The demoness gives him the ultimatum of either fighting Danika or not receiving the head. Choosing to try and use logic to get his way out of it, Trevor exposes some of his human "flaws" in reasoning to the DTA. He makes the argument that fighting potential allies is detrimental; instead, he should be working on building their trust.

    After the class is dismissed, Trevor, still bloody and sweaty from the fight, ducks into the corridors. As he waits for Justin to come out of the training arena, he starts to have second thoughts about killing Jesse. Forcing himself to not think about it, he is suddenly questioned by Corvus. During their brief discussion, Trevor comes to realize he wants to pursue the dark path over the light. What Trevor doesn't realize, however, is that he's also starting to lose his mind...

    The Path of Darkness

    After a couple intense months at the DTA, Corvus sends Trevor on a small mission to Chicago. When he returns to the academy, it has been about six months. During his absence, Trevor worked hard to do Corvus' bidding while at the same time he finished out his English degree at a local community college. He now has a bachelor’s degree in English. Also, while in Chicago, Trevor's madness has increased slightly. He often hears different voices in his head.

    Returning to the DTA, Trevor doesn't quite know how to tell Corvus that in addition to his mission he's also gotten a mortal degree. He fears Corvus will think he still has too much humanity in him--but Trevor has no plans on returning to the path of light. He got the degree in English to make him more marketable as a human/demon spy and hopes that Corvus realizes it. In his absence, his roommate Justin seems to have disappeared--but, Trevor doesn't mind too much. He'd never really hit it off with the kid.

    After talking with the headmaster, Trevor heads off to his first class of the morning in the training arena. Carefully watching all his peers, Trevor tries to make some allies with Essence and Demetrius. It seems that Essence is more interested in being his enemy, though. Before Trevor can form much of an opinion on Demetrius, the class begins and Trevor successfully kills a witch with the ability to manipulate gravity.

    After class, Trevor takes a moment to clean up and rest his sore body. But only a moment--he wastes no time and quickly heads off to the library. He asks the librarian for some books on how to steal other demons' powers and it becomes clear that Trevor has an agenda of his own. For once in his life, he has a purpose, a plan, and a meaning to live. He is confident and assured--but, though he isn't consciously aware of it, he's still hearing voices in his head.

    Being told by the librarian where to find some information, Trevor heads towards the correct shelf. He sees Daniel Broadstone nearby and thinks that maybe Daniel can help him with his plans. It would, after all, be helpful to have an ally--or perhaps someone to take the fall for him if thing were to go wrong. So, he strikes up a conversation with the new kid and is pleasantly surprised to learn that the kid is a psychic.

    Since Daniel has the power of mindreading, Trevor decides any attempt to hide his true intentions would be to his disadvantage. So, in his nonchalant way, he reveals his desire to steal the power of teleporting or shimmering from a demon. The two boys agree to help each other steal a power, shake on it, and begin reading the book in the library. They learn about Hekkatet's Athame. Needing more information about where to find the ritual, Daniel goes to read the librarian's mind.

    As Daniel is talking to the librarian, Trevor mulls over what they had learned. He's concerned that stealing a power may be too dangerous but he's not willing to give up on the notion just yet. Also, Tess--the voice in his mind--reminds him about why he'd tried to run away from magic three years ago. In addition, as Daniel had been reading Trevor's mind, Daniel could hear the different voices of Roland, Trevor's mother, and Tess, but neither Trevor's consciousness nor Daniel realize these voices were coming from Trevor.

    Learning that they must go to the Demonic Market to find more out about the Hekkatet ritual, Trevor and Daniel decide to get some information about it from Daniel's roommate Demetrius. As the two boys head towards Trevor's room, they discuss their past a little, getting to know one another. After locking his Book of Secrets in his chest, Trevor steals a pair of scissors off of Justin's desk to use as a weapon. Then leaving his completely-void-of-personal-belongings side of the room, Trevor and Daniel head back out into the corridors.

    On their way to Daniel's room, Trevor can't get the band Queen out of his head. Unaware that Daniel is reading his mind and listening to his off-key lyrics, Trevor continues to discuss their plans to get the Hekkatet Ritual. As they walk, they run into Demetruis who touches Trevor's hair and majorly creeps the very heterosexual Druid out.

    Realizing that Daniel's reading his mind and can hear Trevor singing, the crazy shadows caper bursts into a crazed kind of laughter. Not long after, since the two students had expressed their desire to go to the market, Demetrius shimmers both Daniel and Trevor to the Demonic Market and simply leaves them there.

    Arriving in the market, both Trevor and Daniel are excited to be so much closer to their goals but also a little wary of the strange surroundings. They quietly discuss a plan--fully intending on stealing the ritual. The voices in Trevor's head seem to be getting worse and Trevor starts to answer them aloud without being aware of it. He hears Tess' laughter but he's not sure exactly what is happening.

    Before he can really contemplate his sanity (or lack thereof), Daniel and Trevor find themselves brought back in time to Cray's booth.

    [Externally, Trevor's level advances to Level 3. As a result of his growing insanity, he also develops a new power: the ability to shadowmerge.]

    At Cray's booth, Trevor and Daniel wait for the right moment to put their plan into action. Before they do anything, though, they want to be sure Cray has the ritual they are seeking. Before Cray is willing to show them the ritual, he wants something in return: the boys' tears.

    Trevor takes an athamae and rams the blunt end of it into the sore wound on his shoulder. With a lot of effort, he finally manages to release some tears, but he is oddly disturbed by his complete lack of emotions. Dan, however, has enough emotional baggage to get some tears rolling.

    Once Cray reveals the ritual, Trevor and Daniel put their plan into action. Trevor pretends to be insane, giving a crazy laugh and suddenly punching Daniel into Cray's booth for no apparent reason. As Daniel plays the part of betrayed friend, Trevor plays the part of betrayer and says he has the ritual even though he doesn't. He takes off, hoping both Cray and Daniel will follow. Then Trevor plans to shadowscape and double back to the booth to steal the ritual for real.

    But instead of following after him, Cray uses his power to turn Daniel into a six-year old boy. If Cray lost his ritual, then at least he'd make money off of selling a young slave. Still in the shadowscape, Trevor considers his next move and gets way excited when he realizes his power has advanced and he can move through shadows.

    Returning to Cray's booth in the cover of the shadow, Trevor waits until Cray is just at the edge of the shadow. Then, running full speed towards the demon, he come out of the shadowscape and rams the stolen athamae into Cray's chest. As the demon is thrown to the ground, little Danny takes a candlestick to the bad man's head. To save his life, Cray rewinds time back a few minutes and Trevor finds himself feeling Cray dig his fingers into his wound for the second time. Screaming out in pain--and seriously pissed the hell off--Trevor shadowmerges and, with his super strength and creepy black veins, he basically crushes Cray's heart in his bear hands.

    [Completely focused on not dying, Trevor is unaware that a fourth demon has joined the little group at Cray's booth. Remy Noir had used his powers to try and stop Cray from killing young Daniel. When Cray had turned back time, Trevor remained oblivious to this fact.]

    Having killed Cray, Trevor steals the athamae, a holster for the athamae, and the main thing: the Hekkatet Ritual. While Daniel steals a bunch of other stuff, Trevor offers his friend the chance to clock him one since Trevor had slammed Daniel into the booth. Dan's too creeped out by Trevor's shadowmerged form, however, to touch him. At Dan's words, Trevor is amazed to realize that he has a new power: shadowmerging.

    When Remy Noir shows up and congratulates the two students on their demonic kill, Trevor immediately distrusts the demonic prince. Not wanting to be caught with demon blood on his hands, Trevor and Daniel head out into the dark catacombs, with Remy Noir following them as a seemingly friendly protector.

    Wandering aimlessly through the dark catacombs, Daniel and Trevor try to gauge how dangerous this newcomer Remy Noir was. He doesn't appear to be too threatening and he finally reveals his name but Trevor is still wary of the demon. After learning that Remy is just as lost as both Trevor and Daniel, Daniel casts a spell to reveal where the path towards the cave that leads from the underworld to the mortal world.

    Daniel's spell is a success and a burst of flames sprouts up, leading the way to the portal. At first, Trevor doesn't believe the spell worked and he slams his fist against the cavern wall to prove it was just rock. At the lack of solidity, though, Trevor falls through the portal and painfully lands on mortal ground--just as an earthquake strikes!

    Remy quickly follows through the portal and using the earthquake to his advantage, Remy quickly pins Trevor to the ground and casts a spell on him, forcing Trevor to follow all his verbal commands.

    [On the other side of the portal, Daniel is prevented from coming through by Essence, who has been following her competition and sees her opportunity to try and take some of it out.]

    As the earth continues to shake beneath them, Trevor and Remy make their way out of the dark cavern and into the forest. They bump into Mason Frank, a champion of good, who foolishly has gotten himself lost while searching for the pathway to hell. Remy and Trevor corner him, sweetly asking him why he's all alone in the forest.

    After Mason Frank does a stupid little dance, both Trevor and Remy are quite shocked by the weirdness of the kid and he simply walks by the two demons (or rather, one demon and one demon-wannabe). Ignoring the loss of Mason Frank, Trevor and Remy return to San Francisco and check into a motel room.

    The next morning, after awaking from a weird dream about his coke-head mother and Huckleberry Finn, Trevor is stiff from sleeping on a chair. Unbeknownst to him, Remy has cast a spell on him that forces Trevor to do whatever Remy tells him. So when Remy asks for the Hekkatet Ritual, Trevor hands it over without delay or thought.

    Of course, that doesn't mean Trevor isn't thinking. He's suddenly very curious about why he can't seem to cry. He's upset that the tears he was forced to shed for Cray are lost with the cracking of the vial.

    Cranky--not being a morning person--Trevor is a little annoyed and terse. But after Remy asks Trevor to refer to him as "Prince," the fit of laughter that overcomes Trevor wakes him up quite nicely.

    Trevor can't hear the voices of Roland and Tess warning him about Remy's spell--but he does notice their absence. It seems awfully quiet in his head and he's a little curious as to where they've gone. Though he's not 100 percent aware of his insanity, he has begun to acknowledge the voices and to speak to them out loud while others are in the room.

    Set on using the Hekketat Ritual, Trevor opens the phone book to find a magic shop. He wants to steal some scrying materials. As he scans the book-----

    [DREAMSCAPE STASIS!! The Elders in their infinite wisdom decide to screw with everyone's dreams. Trevor is locked in the Dreamscape Realm]

    Finding himself on the L train in Chicago, Trevor doesn't understand why he can't get off. Realizing he is not alone on the train, he thinks perhaps the man in the corner is his father--but it turns out to be Tess!

    Thrown from his nightmare, Trevor suddenly finds himself in Paige's dream where he reverts to being like a teenager once more. As he and Paige prepare to sneak out of her parents' house in order to find some booze, Trevor can't help but flashback to a memory of entering a church.

    Just as Trevor and the hot teenage chick take off, Trevor is thrown in Hac Ken's dream, where everything is ancient and castle-y. For the first time, Trevor realizes something is up--but he doesn't realize he's dreaming. He thinks he's been sent to anther reality somehow. As Hac Ken starts to dream about a subway in China, Trevor encounters another lost Dreamer, Dominic. Just as the three begin to discuss what is occurring--

    [HIGHER BEINGS say tsk tsk to the Elders' foolishness and REVERSE THE DREAMSCAPE STATUS]

    Sent back to his own dream, Trevor is a little confused as he once again confronts Tess. But he quickly wakes up, finding himself asleep on top of the phonebook he'd been looking in. As usual, he makes light of that which he doesn't entirely understand and he mostly ignores the interruption of the weird dream. He's more interested in getting to the Magic Box and finishing what he'd started with the Hekkatat Ritual.

    Leading Remy to the Magic Box, Trevor is still unaware that he's under the dark prince's spell. As they reach the Pier, however, everything about Trevor's life changes in an instant. Both Remy and Trevor are pulled to the underworld by the Dark Council. In the presence of true demons, true evil, Trevor is startled into the knowledge that good and evil really do exist. He can't ignore this truth any longer.

    After the council basically conscripts Trevor into a huge battle of evil versus good, Trevor is sent back to Pier 39 to fight against the forces of light. With his whole world crashing apart--Good Evil? Which was he?--Trevor chooses not to think about it. He doesn't want to know. He doesn't want to choose. He doesn't want to accept the existence of these two forces. So, instead, he throws himself wholly into the battle, deciding to beat the shit out of anyone or anything that comes his way.

    Remy too has something to do with Trevor's sudden crazy desire to kill. As the prince commands him to fight and attack, Trevor has no choice but to acquiesce. Trevor kills a woman in Quake, helps destroy the Magic Box by burning it to the ground, and then he heads to the parking lot, where he battles some forces of good. His hatred and anger mounts as he discovers he's fighting a Druid---a boy who mirrors him in the opposite. Trevor, a dark Druid, fighting against Ethan, a good Druid.

    Wanting nothing more than to fight--to ignore all thought and all emotion--Trevor does just that. He finishes out the battle, surviving though his team loses.

    After the battle, Trevor returns to the DTA, but he has completely and utterly cut himself off from all emotions. He no longer feels anything at all. He merely goes through the motions of life, day to day. By this time, he is also aware that he's hearing voices and he wants to destroy Tess and Roland but he's not sure how.

    As much as he wants to forget everything, to not feel and not think, he can't help the mantra that repeats over and over: good and evil exist. Good and evil exist. And this, of course, leads to the question that he doesn't want to answer. Which is he?

    After a few months of staying with the DTA, Trevor decides to run away, no longer wanting to be surrounded by people or thoughts. He just wants to run from it all. He ends up living on the streets of San Francisco, breaking into people's houses and apartments to use the shower and eat. Cut off from everything, he lives in a daze, unwilling to allow himself to feel.

    Finally, it all becomes too much and Trevor has to do something. He needs a change and the only thing that he can come up with is reconnecting with his Druid heritage. He jumps down from the roof he'd been sleeping on and decides to jump into a stranger's car. Pulling a knife on Charlotte Woodward, Trevor forces the young woman to drive him to Muir Woods.

    He's too caught up in his own lack of emotions to really care that Charlotte is terrified of the woods, having had her own personal demons to fight there not long ago. As the two make their way to the woods, Trevor discovers that he's jealous that Charlotte can feel and he desperately wants to learn how she can find it so easy to connect with her emotions.

    When Charlotte and Trevor discover each other's Druid heritage, they feel a connection and Charlotte--the good soul that she is--decides to try and help Trevor to reconnect with his emotions.

    With her encouragement, Trevor decides that he will try. Terrified--though he can't feel it--he asks Charlotte to hold on to his small acorn. She takes the seed he'd been carrying for almost three years now and waits for him over by some trees while Trevor tries to get himself under some kind of control.

    Communing with the oak tree, Trevor allows all the years of suppressed emotions to come crashing down upon him. It's overwhelming and painful, but he takes Charlotte's words to heart: this is the only way to live. Without his emotions, he might as well be dead.

    But as he lets it all in, Trevor is filled with pain and guilt and anger. He feels the remorse for all the murders he's done and he realizes that the choice of good and evil had already been made. He'd killed. He'd killed Tess--and as far as Trevor is concerned, he's evil. It doesn't matter what he wants--he's evil.

    Not wanting to hurt Charlotte, Trevor shadowscapes and disappears from the woman's sight. As he watches her leave with his little acorn, he feels a sense of deep sadness, wanting so much to run to her, to be in her beautiful presence. But he can only seem to find any type of comfort from the shadow, from the connection of the earth to his emotions to his body.

    Overwhelmed with the new emotions, Trevor walks back to San Francisco, thinking about how evil he is and how angry he is. He feels betrayed and hurt and he wants to destroy those that made him this way. He comes to the conclusion that if an Evil Council exists, then there must be an opposite: a good Council of Light. In his anger, he wants to destroy them.

    Finally back in San Francisco, Trevor forms a plan. He looks through the newspaper to find a witch and he finds Ethan DeLorme's picture. Doing his little bit of research, Trevor makes his way to the Druid's apartment and breaks in. He is there to find scrying materials, but his mind keeps running over thoughts of good and evil, his new-found and over-flooding emotions, and the terror that he is evil. While ransacking and destroying Ethan's room, Trevor can't help his anger/hatred at Ethan: the good Druid, the good foil of his evil self. Briefly distracted by Ethan's Book of Secrets, Trevor reads about Druids, further confusing him about the nature of his powers.

    Finally finding scrying materials, Trevor casts a spell:
    Of good and evil I now concede in heart,
    and if one dark council, so also must be light.
    With this scrying crystal part,
    lead me to who can travel to their heavenly sight.


    First show on the map, I beseech, the place to go,
    and when I'm near whom I seek, let the crystal glow.
    Trevor's spell is apparently successful, the scrying crystal pointing him to Alcatraz Island. Grabbing the crystal, he heads back out to the city, intent on going to Alcatraz Island and hoping the crystal will glow and show him the way to the "Council of Light", aka the whitelighters/Elders.

    A few blocks away from Ethan's apartment, the shadowscaper ducks into an alley, intending to break into the Sunshine Hotel and steal some cash so that he can get on a tour out to Alcatraz. He ducks into the back alley of the hotel, unaware that Ethan--on his way back to his apartment--has spotted him and is following him. When Ethan makes his presence known, Trevor is irritated and bored by the idea of dealing with Ethan. But Ethan doesn't beat around the bush and flat out says with no ceremony: "Druids can come back from evil".

    This throws Trevor into an inner rage, but also fills him with hope. For some odd-ball reason, instead of punching Ethan, Trevor reaches out to touch him, wondering if the 'connection' that he's always been missing has been a Druid-to-Druid connection. However, Ethan accidentally uses his power of introjection at their physical contact and Trevor loses all of his powers--and Ethan gains them. This of course, ticks Trevor off, and the shadowscaper attacks Ethan with rage. Trevor tries desperately to get Ethan to fight him back, wanting to feel the pain of fist against flesh, wanting Ethan to destroy him. He's a little more than half-suicidal, hoping that Ethan will destroy him and end his evilness, end all the confusion and pain.

    Rather anti-climatically, Ethan doesn't fight back and just basically says that Trevor needs to "choose" good. Trevor thinks that's kind of ridiculous--too easy of a solution--but he shrugs and says he'll give it a shot. He says "I'll choose good". And doesn't feel any different. But the decision has been made. And Trevor intends to stick by it, despite the knowledge that he is already evil. He reluctantly goes back to Ethan's apartment and they talk about boring choices of good and evil. Trevor is exhausted, but allows himself the hope of having found a real friend, even if that friend annoys the living shit out of him.

    The Path of Light

    (Then, in a contrived plot, Ethan convinces Trevor to go to Charlie Dean's grave. And Trevor does just because it's the polite thing to do in an rpg setting. Charlie was killed in a recent game-day plot and Ethan has some weird connection to her and thinks that Trevor might benefit from seeing her grave and understanding death and heroism or something. I, the player, was a bit confused. And Trevor, the character, was a bit bored. )

    At St. Peter's, Trevor leaves Ethan alone at Charlie's gravesite and heads into the church. He is mostly bored and itching to DO something. Since he can't get to Alcatraz tonight (all the tours are closed), he figures maybe a little prank might be fun. As he steps into the church, though, he is struck by the quiet presence of the Holy Eucharist, although he is oblivious to what that is. While contemplating a statue of the Holy Family, Pacey and Kathryn Page come to the entrance from within the church. Trevor, immediately recognizing Pacey from their battle a year ago, casually offers to finish their fight. He is disappointed when Pacey says to take it outside. Trevor can tell that Pacey doesn't want a fight and so that just makes it all, you know, ...boring. He doesn't like the way that Pacey is staring him down, as if Trevor is some kind of evil jerk. So Trevor decides to set that record straight and announces that he's reformed, on the path to good. Pacey points out that Trevor's "definition of good" is rather interesting, since Trevor had just tried to fight him in a battle to the death. Trevor considers this, realizing that he DOESN'T have a definition of good at all. And, really, that was a lot for Pacey to be asking for, wasn't it? All the great authors of all the great literary classics were still pondering that very question--why should Trevor have it all figured out?

    Then Trevor sees Kathryn Page, a beautiful young woman who is worried and exhausted and scared but also filled with quiet resolve. He is immediately interested in her emotions, still finding any display of true emotion to be fascinating and slightly baffling. He wants to prove to Pacey and to himself that he is, indeed, good. He's not sure this is possible, since he believes he is already evil. Conflicted about the difference of his "choices" and the reality of what is, he is finally asked by Kathryn a very important question. Why does he care about her current predicament? Trevor thinks about it and realizes that he wishes someone had been there for him when he'd been in trouble all those years ago. So, he wants to be there for Kathryn now when she needs it. He doesn't want other people to have to go through all the pain and loneliness that he went through. Kathryn accepts his genuine explanation and, while Pacey goes upstairs to chat with a priest, Trevor and Kathryn go back into the church. Kathryn explains that her brother is cursed to be evil and kill her, but that Kathryn is trying to find a way to break the curse and save him. Trevor opens up for the first time since chatting with Charlotte in the woods and he admits to Kathryn that he killed Tess all those years ago. Kathryn does not seem to believe that makes Trevor automatically evil, but nor is she as naive as Ethan in thinking that all can be solved with a single choice. The two of them are quiet in the church, each contemplating the predicament of the other and wondering how they will be able to save Kathryn's brother.

    Pacey comes back, followed by Ethan, who is followed by a vampire slayer that Ethan met in the cemetery. Trevor is interested in Pacey, wondering if the angel had connections to the Council of Light that he was in search of. Trevor introduces everyone to Ethan, his "sponsor" for recovery from being an evil murderer. Then the role play game closes. /end CAOP

    *****MISSING HISTORY**** The following will be an explanation of what occurred between Trevor's time at CAOP and his resurrection as a character at a new board called Lost & Bound.

    After a discussion with the angel, Pacey convinces both Trevor and Kathryn that Trevor shouldn't be involved in Kathryn's quest for saving her brother. He makes undeniably good points about Trevor's state of mind and Trevor's inability to see what is good vs. what is evil. A day or so later, Trevor and Ethan make it to Alcatraz together. Trevor has told Ethan about his quest to destroy a "Council" that has wronged him. Without lying, Trevor leads Ethan to believe that the "Council" that he is after is made up of demons, so Ethan is gung-ho on helping Trevor to complete this 'good' task. While at Alcatraz, Trevor's crystal glows and they meet a being that can orb in a swirl of blue lights. Trevor attacks the being, forcing an explanation of what the Council is. Out of Ethan's earshot, Trevor learns that whitelighters exist and that there are a group of Elder whitelighters that help guide good witches and other good magical beings. Using the Hekketat Ritual, Trevor stabs the whitelighter and steals the power to orb.

    After some research--of which there is very little available--Trevor comes to believe that the only way to defeat the Elders is through non-magical means. He is unaware of darklighter poison, as none of the books in the magical shops of mortals say much about white lighters or darklighters at all. (Perhaps if they had gone to the DTA, Trevor would have learned this weakness, but Ethan convinces Trevor not to return to the DTA's library or the demonic underworld market for answers.) As a result, Trevor forms a (crazy) plan to bring semi-automatic weapons to the "Council", as well as a home-made bomb. All the while, the ability to "orb" is slowly interacting with his ability to shadowscape and Trevor is slowly and unknowingly dying from the foreign power that he stole. Nevertheless, Trevor is on a mission to destroy the Council, believing that by destroying them, he will somehow be able to close the door to his past and to do the world a favor. He has convinced himself that killing the Elders will be an act of good because it will stop them from messing around with people's lives (dreamscape fiasco) and leaving people like him to be lost and alone.

    Ethan, meanwhile, is coming to realize that Trevor's mission may not be so good, after all. But it's too late. Trevor has already put his plan into action and Trevor orbs Ethan and himself up to the Elder's plane. In an insane rage, Trevor shoots the place up with his guns (unaware that Elders will just heal themselves from mortal wounds). He arms his bomb, set to go off in 5 minutes. In that time, Ethan and a wounded Elder have been discussing the true purpose of Elders/whitelighters. Ethan runs to Trevor, trying to help him to see how Trevor's actions are about revenge, not about doing good. Ethan and Trevor have a quick, but very genuine discussion about the Council of Light and how it's necessary. Just like the demonic council exists, so MUST the Elders. Yin and yang and balance. And just because the Elders make mistakes and couldn't help Trevor, doesn't make them evil. Ethan points out that Trevor is projecting his anger/hatred about himself onto the Elders--and Trevor realizes that his fight has always been against himself and never against the Elders.

    There's no way to disarm the bomb (which won't do much against the Elders anyway, except give them a bunch of pain, which they deserve). Trevor tries to orb Ethan back to the mortal realm, but realizes that his powers are completely messed up. He's barely able to orb at all. Gripping onto Ethan's hand, he orbs back to the safety of San Francisco, just as the bomb goes off. But Ethan doesn't make it. Still trapped up in the Elder's plane, Ethan is killed by the bomb's explosion.

    Once again alone--and now understanding himself to be very much evil, Trevor is once again thrown into depression. He wants to be good, but his actions prove that he is already evil. He hates himself for what he's done and for killing Ethan. He does some research and finds a way to expunge the foreign power of orbing from himself. Again only with his own powers, he decides he's too dangerous to be around other people, so he takes off to the woods, deciding to explore his Druid heritage. He spends days at a time in the Oak grove, meditating and practicing his powers. He only goes to town to eat and shower every now and again by breaking into people's homes for the day. He finally comes to two certainties: 1) he was already evil; 2) he wants to be good. After a few months, he wanders back to the city, turning himself into the police for the murder of Tess, the woman he'd killed at Quake, and Ethan.

    During his trial, his lawyer realizes that Trevor is off his rocker. The Druid is still hearing voices in his head, and when questioned by the doctors, he explains that he went up to a magical white plane of existence to shoot up all the Elders and that's how Ethan died. It becomes quite clear to the mortals that Trevor is insane. Trevor, for his part, doesn't argue the point--although, this is the clearest that he's felt in his mind in many years. When he's put into a mental institution, convicted with Tess' murder and the death of the woman he'd killed while under a spell, Trevor is just happy to be locked away for his evil crimes. He can easily shadowscape to escape his prison cell of a white room, but he sincerely thinks that the world is much safer if he stays locked away from the outside world.

    ****begin LOST & BOUND****

    To be continued....